A borrowed blog...kind of

I have so much going on lately that I a) havent had the time b)havent had the motivation to write on my blog. That and I cant think about what to write :P So I apologise and in a shameful attempt at keeping what's left of my loyal readers I have borrowed an idea from a blog i follow regularly called "Green Ness" http://green-ness.blogspot.com/

The idea is titled "A Simple woman's meme" and i can hear you all scoffing at the idea of me being simple...well i am anyway :P

Outside my window...well my blinds are closed because hubby is sick and snoring on the couch BUT beyond the blinds my seedlings have finally sprouted, the grass is starting to green up again and the sky is a little grey - great for cosying up on the couch with a good book.

I am thinking.... about too many things... about how my house is a mess (whats new these days...) about how much sewing I want to get done, about how much study I need to do, about my niece coming over tonight, about my nannna, about the decluttering that needs to be done, about the deigns for my new lounge and tv cabinet (designed by me and made by hubby) about my need to do a to do list im thinking....

I am thankful for... my beautiful family, those friends I consider family, and that I have a fantastic hubby who would do anything for me.

I am wearing...My uniform of sorts, jeans and tshirt and boots that have fur at the top but are incredibly supportive of my two spazzy ankles oh and my Thomas Sabo bracelet

I am remembering... I have too many things in the 'now' and short future to remember much in the past...but I do remember the way my mum used to twirl my ponytail while she was on the phone....I do the same thing to miss B (5)

I am going... To the Bon Jovi concert in December!!! So excited - my darling hubby bought the tickets for me :0)

I am reading... nothing except study notes for the moment - I am saving up all of my books for the MS Readathon Novel Challenge - I'll be reading in August, if you want to sponsor me:http://register.thenovelchallenge.org.au/The-Novel-Challenge/SamYoung/&utm_source=Facebook&utm_medium=Share_My_Page&utm_campaign=Adult_Readathon
I am hoping... we can find a bigger house to move into soon....I am really running out of room!

Noticing that... something on my regular list of jobs and focus points needs to go...Too much stress

Pondering these words... 'Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart' William Wordsworth

In the kitchen... A big mess - I have been baking up a storm - I hate the clean up... I miss having a dishwasher...

Around the house... too much clutter that needs to be sorted

One of my favourite things... morning cuddles with miss b (5) and miss g (2) - they are super sweet when they first wake up :)

Hope you enjoyed my 'borrowed' blog - dont forget to sponsor me :)

Much love

PCOS - Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome

I'm in tears as I write today's post...today is a very grey day, what am i talking about???, it's been a grey week, and i know its only Tuesday, but the days seem longer when they are grey.....

Hi

So for those that dont know me already, I'm Sammy. I weigh umm hold on its been weeks since i weighed myself (it seems pointless to these days) wow I weigh 128.8kg...damn that hurts. like I said I havent weighed myself in ages....in kind of hurts too much....oh crap now here come the tears again...

So like I said I weigh 128.8kg, I have pms every day of the month, I eat like a camel (binge eat one day, not get hungry for days after that)I have days sometimes weeks of lets call them 'grey' days, I have what I like to call 'little soldier ****' putting little land mines in my pores (aka more zits than a teenage boy), those same little so and so's pulling hair out of my head and planting it in my chin, cheek and upper lip area (honestly, one day im afraid im going to wake up in the morning look in the mirror and be greeted by a crater faced bearded lady reflection). I also get days where it seems that every half an hour I feel like Im having a heart attack (Im not, its just a fabulous little thing called anxiety) seriously, try concentrating on anything when that happens! Put all that together and Ive got this lovely little thing called PCOS or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.

Apparently it affects 10% of the population - if this is the case then the majority of the 10% is my circle of friends. Yet before I found out I had it, I had never heard of it. Its been around since the 1930's, noone definitively knows how it occurs nor do they know how to fix it. And let me tell you one thing if you have it but dont want children or more children (me) well, the doctors dont really give a rats patootie about you. Never mind that this 'syndrome' can cause diabetes, heart disease, depression, anxiety etc if you arent looking to have a baby then you dont matter. Dont get me wrong I feel for all of those out there who have PCOS and cant fall pregnant, i really do - but I would like a chance to enjoy the same amount of care and concern shown to them. PCOS is an awful thing to deal with, no matter what your situation.

Anyways so this is my blog, its about me and my feelings. I swear (like a trooper sometimes) but i will never ever mean to cause offence, I am not and should not be considered a 'proper source of information' (if you want more info just google PCOS) I welcome comments, I try to blog often but sometimes the grey days or the other parts of my life interfere with that.

Take care of yourselves