A borrowed blog...kind of

I have so much going on lately that I a) havent had the time b)havent had the motivation to write on my blog. That and I cant think about what to write :P So I apologise and in a shameful attempt at keeping what's left of my loyal readers I have borrowed an idea from a blog i follow regularly called "Green Ness" http://green-ness.blogspot.com/

The idea is titled "A Simple woman's meme" and i can hear you all scoffing at the idea of me being simple...well i am anyway :P

Outside my window...well my blinds are closed because hubby is sick and snoring on the couch BUT beyond the blinds my seedlings have finally sprouted, the grass is starting to green up again and the sky is a little grey - great for cosying up on the couch with a good book.

I am thinking.... about too many things... about how my house is a mess (whats new these days...) about how much sewing I want to get done, about how much study I need to do, about my niece coming over tonight, about my nannna, about the decluttering that needs to be done, about the deigns for my new lounge and tv cabinet (designed by me and made by hubby) about my need to do a to do list im thinking....

I am thankful for... my beautiful family, those friends I consider family, and that I have a fantastic hubby who would do anything for me.

I am wearing...My uniform of sorts, jeans and tshirt and boots that have fur at the top but are incredibly supportive of my two spazzy ankles oh and my Thomas Sabo bracelet

I am remembering... I have too many things in the 'now' and short future to remember much in the past...but I do remember the way my mum used to twirl my ponytail while she was on the phone....I do the same thing to miss B (5)

I am going... To the Bon Jovi concert in December!!! So excited - my darling hubby bought the tickets for me :0)

I am reading... nothing except study notes for the moment - I am saving up all of my books for the MS Readathon Novel Challenge - I'll be reading in August, if you want to sponsor me:http://register.thenovelchallenge.org.au/The-Novel-Challenge/SamYoung/&utm_source=Facebook&utm_medium=Share_My_Page&utm_campaign=Adult_Readathon
I am hoping... we can find a bigger house to move into soon....I am really running out of room!

Noticing that... something on my regular list of jobs and focus points needs to go...Too much stress

Pondering these words... 'Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart' William Wordsworth

In the kitchen... A big mess - I have been baking up a storm - I hate the clean up... I miss having a dishwasher...

Around the house... too much clutter that needs to be sorted

One of my favourite things... morning cuddles with miss b (5) and miss g (2) - they are super sweet when they first wake up :)

Hope you enjoyed my 'borrowed' blog - dont forget to sponsor me :)

Much love

PCOS - Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome

I'm in tears as I write today's post...today is a very grey day, what am i talking about???, it's been a grey week, and i know its only Tuesday, but the days seem longer when they are grey.....

Hi

So for those that dont know me already, I'm Sammy. I weigh umm hold on its been weeks since i weighed myself (it seems pointless to these days) wow I weigh 128.8kg...damn that hurts. like I said I havent weighed myself in ages....in kind of hurts too much....oh crap now here come the tears again...

So like I said I weigh 128.8kg, I have pms every day of the month, I eat like a camel (binge eat one day, not get hungry for days after that)I have days sometimes weeks of lets call them 'grey' days, I have what I like to call 'little soldier ****' putting little land mines in my pores (aka more zits than a teenage boy), those same little so and so's pulling hair out of my head and planting it in my chin, cheek and upper lip area (honestly, one day im afraid im going to wake up in the morning look in the mirror and be greeted by a crater faced bearded lady reflection). I also get days where it seems that every half an hour I feel like Im having a heart attack (Im not, its just a fabulous little thing called anxiety) seriously, try concentrating on anything when that happens! Put all that together and Ive got this lovely little thing called PCOS or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.

Apparently it affects 10% of the population - if this is the case then the majority of the 10% is my circle of friends. Yet before I found out I had it, I had never heard of it. Its been around since the 1930's, noone definitively knows how it occurs nor do they know how to fix it. And let me tell you one thing if you have it but dont want children or more children (me) well, the doctors dont really give a rats patootie about you. Never mind that this 'syndrome' can cause diabetes, heart disease, depression, anxiety etc if you arent looking to have a baby then you dont matter. Dont get me wrong I feel for all of those out there who have PCOS and cant fall pregnant, i really do - but I would like a chance to enjoy the same amount of care and concern shown to them. PCOS is an awful thing to deal with, no matter what your situation.

Anyways so this is my blog, its about me and my feelings. I swear (like a trooper sometimes) but i will never ever mean to cause offence, I am not and should not be considered a 'proper source of information' (if you want more info just google PCOS) I welcome comments, I try to blog often but sometimes the grey days or the other parts of my life interfere with that.

Take care of yourselves

Apologies....but i hope you've missed me?

Hi Friends!

My blog (as well as my life) has been having some technical difficulties, so i apologise for not blogging lately. I am in the process of designing a new blog so stay tuned (pretty please)?

On a better note, I have lost weight! Its only a small amount but it is to be expected with PCOS. I now weigh 124.9 which is a loss of 1.2kg yay me....happy dance :0)

Hope you are all happy and well and that you will continue to bear with me....

Much love




PS if you are into stamping you should check out my friend emma from A Little Crafty, she is super talented and she has just become a Stampin Up Consultant :0)

Day 3....hello gym oh how i have missed you....

Hello Friends

So its day 3 and its my first day back at the gym. I love my gym, whenever i go it seems as if Im the only one there. Its all shiny and new and every treadmill/bike/crosstrainer has their own tv attached to it. It hardly seems like exercise when you plug in your headphones and watch one of those completely mindnumbing and ridiculous shows on MTV, (normally if its on at home it compels me to get up and do well anything else really) , but at the gym , I dont know, that half hour show just seems to hold my attention long enough to build up a decent sweat and heart rate well enough that I am beginning to enjoy treadmill time :0) Then its off to the circuit floor, I am loving all the arm exercises like lat pulldowns, shoulder raises and chest press and find myself imagining that if I work hard enough, my tuck shop lady arms (sorry tuck shop ladies - there is just no better way to describe it)will one day be as smokin as say Alyssa Milano's arms. This is really helpful when my arms are feel like they are on fire and I still have that last set to do!

So this morning I spent a little longer at the gym and worked a little harder because this afternoon it was Miss L's birthday party. Miss L is the eldest daughter of my lovely friend and trusted babysitter Emma from A Little Crafty and let me tell you, Emma is not only a little crafty but a fantastic cook as well! Em makes a simply to die for caramel slice and made it for the party this afternoon, so I couldnt be rude could i?

Im thinking maybe I started in the wrong week, what with mothers day yesterday and the party today, plus miss b has another 2 birthday parties this week....oh well never mind, Ill just have to work harder at the gym tomorrow.

Well thats it from me tonight, it has been a busy day and i am oh so slightly sleepy...

Much love to you all



PS I promise I will give you the 'how i got here and where i hope to get' blog that I promised to give you yesterday, tomorrow.

Day 2 and I've failed already....BUT Happy Mummy's Day!!!

Hello Friends

Oh dear, I have failed already! Well actually I havent really because I actually made a calculated decision that today I would have as my last 'free' day. I hear you all saying but "why Sammy why?" Well the reason why is because today is Mother's Day. Today I decided to ignore the menu set out for me and concentrate on what matters most to me - my babies, my beautiful mummy and my lovely mother in law (yes i said lovely.)

Today I woke up to a lovely cuddle with misses b & g, a halfway cleaned house (hubby's gift to me was to clean the entire house) some lovely school mother's day stall gifts and a special recording of miss b saying why she loved me "I love my mummy because she takes me to places that I want to go to"

For the rest of the morning I got to have breaky in bed, latte delivered to me without me having to ask and I got to immerse myself in my new facebook page and some custom blankie designs while hubby cleaned the house and did the washing and then organised stuff for the picnic lunch with my mummy. My mummy is the lady who inspires me everyday and if I look as good as her when I her age I will be a happy woman!



After lunch we headed over to hubby's parents place for some afternoon tea. Im really lucky when it comes to mother in laws, mine is fantastic! She works 4 days a week and on her day off, loves to take miss b to school and pick her up and takes miss g to see her grandnan and or shopping for the day. This gives me time to do whatever errands i need to do or allows me time to focus on the magazine research/partylite stuff/sewing/studying totally kidfree!

Speaking of grandnan, matt's nan is one of those nanna's that you just want to be around and spend time with, she was at the afternoon tea this afternoon and absolutely loved her handmade snuggle! We then got to have a great chat about anything and nothing really.

Im going to finish off this post with a special request - I found out tonight that my nanna, who turned 83 earlier in the week, has had a fall and broken her hip. She goes into surgery tomorrow and I wish I could be there with her. Unfortunately she lives in Adelaide (and finances dont allow for jumping on a plane)so I am asking/hoping that all my friends will send a get better wish/prayer out into the universe so that her surgery and recovery goes well.

Thanks for reading and dont be to disappointed in me, I'll be back on the plan tomorrow and GYM in the morning YAY!!!

Much love to you all

Confession and Clear outs

Hello friends,

So I have been fooling myself for a long time, I have been ignoring my feelings and what i can so plainly see and letting myself continue along in the same way in the hopes that i will never have to face the truth. Well there comes a day when the pile under the rug becomes like a mountain you have to climb over and you have no choice but too get under there and clean house! For me, that day happened ages ago, but i can be stubborn so even though i have had all the subtle hints and not so subtle - (seriously its like my mountain now has a neon sign announcing its existence)today is the day that I fess up - to you my friends but most importantly to myself....

Deep Breath.......

okay I can do this....

My name is Sammy and.....

I

AM

FAT!

Actually lets be truthful, I was fat 40 kilos ago, I am obese - no I am morbidly obese and have been for some time and I have known it, everyone who sees me knows it, and i have been ignoring it...stupidly ignoring it, I mean how stupid can i be? morbid = death, I am basically digging my own grave everytime i put that takeout/chocolate etc in my mouth.

I weigh 126.1 kilograms my height is 5'2.5" I wear size 16,18,20,22,24.

Well no more! Today is the day that I start looking after myself and I need you my friends to help keep me motivated and on track, will you help me? I plan to post here daily my thoughts, activity and any confessions that may arise, I just ask that you help me stay accountable, throw an encouraging word or two my way and if need be go mad at me when I go off track....

Well that will do for today, tomorrow I will go into how I got here and where i hope to get.

Much love to you all

Stitching and warming up for winter :)

Hi Friends

Well it certainly has been chilly this past week. Almost cold enough to switch the aircon over to the heat setting....I have resisted though - I think Im starting to go a little green around the edges these days - dont get me wrong, im not a total greenie and probably never will be...I enjoy my scalding hot 10 minute showers and well there is no way Im turning off my TV at night, but I am starting to think a little more about saving energy and becoming more sustainable....so with that being said im attempting to restock my house with 'green' light bulbs (any reccomendations?), starting to use more lamps and my candle stock is being well used!

Today I have a unit meeting with the Partylite gals at Rouse Hill, Im a little worried about how warm i will be, the nights have been super cold this week! I am cadging a lift with my good friend and sponsor tonight because as we discovered when I drove to the last one I am as blind as a bat on those dark country roads! So today I wanted to find a little gift to show my appreciation... Now any one who knows me knows that I am a shop-a-holic I love to shop and can usually find several things to buy in every shop i go to but lately I dont know whether the shops just arent getting anything great in or i am in a funk but i just cant find anything to get excited about buying so shopping for me has become a bit tiresome (gasp eee gads shock!) Sorry scratch that -there is one thing i get excited about - FABRIC! Minkee, Chenille, fleece,flannel, cotton, poplin corduroy you name it and im there!

So anyway like i said I wanted to find a pretty gift for my friend and really i just couldnt find anything, so i did what i usually do when im bored...i went to spotlight :) and there in the remnants bin was my solution....beautiful green corduroy! Here is my logic... gorgeous cord material, need a reason to buy it, its cold, need a gift idea = GOT IT!

So I bought some purple cord (and the green piece for me) some lovely piping, yummy smelling lavender and went on a hunt that ended at petbarn :) do you know what I made yet?

I made it square and a bit bigger than the ones you can buy because well i prefer a larger square one - and im making it so there :P

It took me about 15 minutes to sew this up and i am really pleased with the end result :) So pleased that when Miss B got home I decided to make one for her as well, then she asked if she could learn to sew...ok why not, its a nice easy straight forward project :)

I think she did pretty well, what do you think?